It's a miracle that I'm writing this and honestly I can't quite believe it myself. When I leave my mind to confront what I've been closing off all this time, the sad truth is - I haven't been remotely interested in practising in over 4 years now. It saddens me to the core and yet it's not enough to get me back on my feet. Let me tell you what happened to me today:
Nearly 5 o'clock in the evening and I've not yet moved. I've not got dressed, I've barely eaten and I've not left my room. I'm scrolling mindlessly through Facebook and accidentally stumble across message requests from people I have never met. So many thank you's, so many questions, so much appreciation for this silly little blog. It made me remember how much I used to love writing these posts, love helping everyone and how much I wish I still could with so much enthusiasm.
Losing your passion for something changes your relationship with it. There was a time when this world completely consumed me and now when people ask what I'd like to do with my life, my answer is always "I don't know".
So unfortunately, this post doesn't signify my return to this crazy world. But it means I'm going to try. Try to be interested, try to be active, try to help people. And hopefully who knows, I might end up auditioning again one day. Thank you to everyone that continues to encourage me, to everyone that sends me messages of your own stories and to everyone that looks to me for inspiration. It's you that inspires me.
Friday 23 September 2016
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Hello Heather,
ReplyDeleteI run a company called www.howtodrama.com which specialises in getting students into the very competitive drama schools in the UK.
I would very much like to feature you on our website. We usually do a podcast where we promote our guests blog or products if they have any.
If you would like to schedule a call at some point to discuss further email me at: connor@howtodrama.com and we can set up a call.
Thanks
Connor