As a result of a select few people abusing the luxury of anonymity, I'm afraid to say you will no longer be able to comment without signing into your Google account. I apologise to those who have been completely supportive while remaining anonymous. I did and still do greatly appreciate the advice, shared stories of understanding and thoughts you have posted throughout my blog.
This transition is unfortunately and yet thankfully only due to a small minority of people that believe masquerading behind a keyboard grants them permission to write whatever they please. Well I'm sorry, but that's not how it works here. This blog, though perhaps only a few of you know, was created merely for myself to record the details of my auditions. I was not expecting the amount of responses, the people that asked for my help nor the now 60,000 views for this page. I had so much incredible fun writing out these auditions with laughter, wit and advisory. And yet now, it seems, a select few are voicing their opinions more than I am.
I will do it. There is no question in my mind that I will achieve my goal. In five years, in seven years or perhaps in twenty. One day you will see my name and I hope to God that you feel like shit for putting me down. I am not spoilt in the slightest. I went from a two parent family with a six figure salary to living with my single mother, on one income and benefits at the age of seven. I was never sent to stage school or acting lessons because we could not afford them. My first acting class was one that I paid for myself out of birthday money at the age of 17. Now tell me again that I am a brat.
It seems so easy to choose a career and pursue it. Go to university, obtain a degree, enter the business. Why do I have to decide now? Because quite frankly, I'm enjoying life without the pressure. No, I'm not going to miss the window. No, I'm not being lazy. But for the record, I have paid for acting lessons (out of my own salary thank you), I am back in contact with old directors as well as new ones, and have contacted three photographers for head shots.
The sad reality is, none of this is really any of your business. I've opened up my life to anyone and everyone - some strangers, some evidently not. Herein lies the fame monster. You can never run from negativity. However, while I'm still normal, at least I can regulate it.
Monday 15 September 2014
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Heather, I am really proud of you for making a stand against these bigoted idiots.
ReplyDeleteI was reading some comments on your last post, and some things that these anonymous keyboard warriors have been saying have made me laugh.
The comment saying people with depression don't speak of it/admit it is just ridiculous. If no one spoke of it, no one would understand it or recover would they?
You have been so so brave by speaking about it even if it is to a stranger. It's a major step in accepting how you feel. You know that I have been open about my depression since I was diagnosed, because I find it to be a massive help. I don't go around with a massive sign saying hey I am depressed, but when the time comes to speaking with friends/family and circumstances where it is necessary, I talk about it.
You are NOT spoilt. People need to understand that, anyone can suffer from some sort of mood disorder, what ever their circumstances. Whether one comes from a stable home, or a broken one, or one has faced major trauma, or a "small" amount of it.
Only YOU know how YOU feel. No one can tell you how you should feel and only you can know what you are feeling. No one should ever lecture others on how they should react to something.
I've known you long enough to know that you can get through it, and reach your goal. However long that may take, you will do it.
I say to people that wish to lecture you on how to live your life when they don't necessarily know half of it, when it is YOURS, need to step back a little.
I'm sure you haven't put your time and emotions into this blog for people who have no idea what they are talking about to lecture you, rather for sharing of advise and CONSTRUCTIVE criticism and help.
Keep doing what you are doing girl. You will succeed :)
Hi, Im really glad to hear that u are getting back into ur acting - from reading ur blog u are clearly a very talented actor (getting to final round rada is amazing) and a very good writer (I'm never bored when reading ur posts). I'm sorry u've experienced some horrible negativity online - people can be real dicks especially on the Internet - but please don't stop writing! Are u going to reapply to drama school this year? And I noticed that last year u applied to RADA but none of the others - how come? I hope preparations for ur auditions are going really well.
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